Teen (15+)
In Flames – Stay With Me
Don't ever let them use you
They will bring you to your knees
I'll try to lead you for awhile
But every time I talk to you
You're too afraid to see
Open your eyes
Breathe in life
Open your eyes
Breathe in, breathe out
Oh I, I can see the light
Stay with me
Away from the darkest of nights
Stay with me
I don't know if you're ready
You should see where I have been
I don't know if you're ready
And I don't know where to begin
Stay with me
Don't ever let them use you
They will bring you to your knees
I'll try to lead you for awhile
But every time I talk to you
You're too afraid to see
Open your eyes
Breathe in life
Open your eyes
Breathe in, breathe out
Oh I, I can see the light
Stay with me
Away from the darkest of nights
Stay with me
I don't know if you're ready
You should see where I have been
I don't know if you're ready
And I don't know where to begin
Stay with me
So Ingun hesitantly joined Natalie to the doctors' office. Sara had to use a make shift office while hers was closed due to the investigation of the fire.
Sara knew that it was a very complex matter in her hands now. These two sisters, Ingun and Natalie, a pair of red winged angels and their troubled background. Sara hoped to be able to heal them, to rid of their inner demons and possibly eventually fix their broken relationship with their own mother. Those other demons, if real, was something Sara could not deal with. She was a psychologist, not an exorcist or whatever she needed to be to fix that problem.
And even though the sisters came from the same background, the effect it had on them was markedly different. Where Natalie projected most of her difficult emotions outwards to the world by hurting others, Ingun projected them inwards by withdrawing and hurting herself. Ingun had over the years turned to the coping strategy of dissociation to protect herself from the inflicted pain and trauma, which eventually had developed into seperate identities within her.
One of them was a little girl with black hair and pony tails on either side of the head, and Esnebria was her name. She had others, but Esnebria was the one that showed up the most often, typically in situations Ingun felt was threatening.
And this is what happened at the doctors' office this morning. Sara met Esnebria for the first time. It didn't take much sometimes to bring her out. The rattling sound of a garbage truck emptying containers, a car honking as it drove by, or people shouting on the street outside.
Esnebria: Where am I? And who are you!?
Sara: Ingun.. it's me, Sara. You are at the hospital. I am here to he..
Esnebria: I don't want to be here! Get me out of here!!
Sara: I.. I understand you are upset, Ingun. Can you.. tell me why you want to get out of here?
Esnebria: I'm not Ingun, you idiot! Ingun is weak for letting momma beat us!
Esnebria: I hate her! I hate them both!
Esnebria: That's why I want to get out! Don't you get it? That's why I want to get out!
Sara: I am terribly sorry to hear about this, I really am, but.. your mother isn't here now. Its only me, you and Natalie.
Esnebria: Natalie! I hate her too! She left us behind! She left us behind with that monster!
Esnebria: Why did you leave us behind, Natalie? Why!? After everything I did for you!
Natalie was terrified. She thought the demon had taken control of her sister again. Sara felt her heart racing, but knew she had to do her best to remain calm to not agitate Ingun any further.
Natalie: I.. I..
Esnebria: Fucking answer me, you dumb fucking bitch!!
Sara: I understand that all of this is very distressing, and that.. that Natalie leaving you behind must have been a horrible experience, but this is not how we address people in my office. Please sit down...
Esnebria: But I want answers!
Sara: And I am here to help you get them, but, please, you have to calm down first.
Esnebria: And then what!? How will YOU get me the answers!
Sara: Well.. think about it this way, besides answers, what else do you want the most?
Esnebria: What do you mean!? I want to get out of.. I want to get away from..
Ingun/Esnebria found herself unable to finish the sentence.
Sara: What is it that you want to get away from?
The room turned silent.
Sara: Ingun..? Can you tell me.. what it is that you want to get away from?
"Hmm?" Ingun said with a feeble voice. She knew she was at the hospital, and she knew that the person asking the question was Dr. Sara, as they had just been introduced, but Ingun wasn't sure why Sara asked this question, nor did she know why she was standing up. Ingun had no memory of the conversation that just took place between Sara and Esnebria. So she didn't know how to answer.
Sara: Ingun.. do you remember what you just asked Natalie, and what you said about your mom?
Ingun: N-n-no... did I... did I say something about m..m-mom?
Sara: Yes, you umm... you said that your mom.. that she was not treating you very nicely, and then you asked Natalie why she left you behind.
Ingun: Oh, umm.. oh, I can't remember s-saying that..
Natalie: It was the demon that got into her! Didn't you see it? That thing..
Sara: Natalie! There is no demon here!
Natalie: But you saw it, didn't you!? How she all of a sudden changed! How can she do that!? What is happening to my sister!?
Sara: Yes, Natalie, I did.. and that is why I have to talk to your sister.
Ingun: Wh-why do you always talk about this de-demon stuff, Natalie?
Natalie: Because you suddenly change into this very different.. thing.. person.. and it scares me!
Ingun: ..I.. w-what...??
Sara: Ingun.. do you often get these moments where you can't seem to remember what happened?
Ingun: Umm... w-well, I don't know.. its, well sometimes I guess.. I can be at home, and then suddenly I am s-somewhere else and I d-don't know how I got there...
Sara: Where are you and what are you usually doing when these lapses in memory start?
Ingun: I am... I am usually at home m-most of the t-time. I don't know, w-watching tv or p-practicing chess or something.
Sara: Besides that, is there something else going on? Can you think of something that could be uh.. triggering these moments?
Ingun: I.. I don't know, the only one with me at home is usually m-m-mom..
Sara: How is the..? What kind of conversation do you typically have with your mom? Do you talk about anything special?
Ingun: Oh, just n-normal everyd-day conversations, you kn-know.. about ordinary st-st-stuff...
Natalie: That is bullshit, Ingun, and you know it!
Sara: Natalie! Please sit down and don't interr-
Natalie: Ingun, I don't want you to stay with mom anymore! I want you to stay with me... I have a spare bunk bed in Aaron and Billy's room.. you can use it temporarily until we get more money.. I want you to stay with me, Ingun... I want you to stay with me...
Sara wanted to say how much she liked what Natalie just said about inviting Ingun over, but now thought the best thing to do here was to pull back and let the sisters talk inbetween themselves...
Natalie: What do you say, Ingun? Will you come home with me to our place? Give it a chance and see if you like it...
Ingun: I don't.. I don't know..wh-what about m-mom?
Natalie: Seriously, Ingun! To hell with mom! She is the reason I am asking you! Please come with me, when we are done here.. I am so.. I am sorry for abandoning you when I.. when I did.. I should have.. asked you this.. much sooner.. please, come with me...
Sara: Well, I have to say... I agree with Natalie, here. I think you should consider, Ingun..
Ingun: O.. ok, I can go.. I can c-com home with you and... and we will see...
Sara: I think that's very good Ingun...., now.... our time for today is soon up, but I think I want to schedule another session with you alone Ingun.. Same time tomorrow, if that is fine by you.
Ingun: Oh.. oh, that is f-fine.. sure... I will t-try to come..
Natalie: I can follow you if you want, Ingun...
Sara: That is very kind of you, Natalie. I will see you again also, same time next week.
Natalie: Ok, I will see you again next week, Sara. Now Ingun... lets go home, sister.. lets go home..
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